Men Are EVIL lol
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: nothin, my window is open and i can hear bugs

i feel like i havent written in a while but mainly i havent really had anything constructive to say i guess. been kinda busy with school and hangin with friends and whatnot. i made a couple of new awesome christian friends over the weekend at a party, that was exciting. haha i had a lot of fun. this morning i got a 54 on an anatomy test and this was after i pretty much studied all day and night sunday and an hour and a half this morning, so yea, that was exciting. and then this guy in one of my classes keeps asking me out but i dont know what to say without like hurting his feelings. so thats getting annoying and then a close friend of mine likes me now and it's driving me mad and its all confusing and im sick of it and this other guy realized i was single and gah! just let me be, please, like seriously!!! as my mom says lol "MEN ARE EEEEVIL!" lol, well i know most men arent evil, but gosh darnit, they sure are annoying. i just want everybody to leave me alone and just stop it! gosh, i hate it. last night out of nowhere, like on the ride home from church i was silent the whole time, just studying. and then when i got home, i was about to go into my room and my dad yells "CINDI!" and was like whoa lol and im like "yea?" and then he went on and on for like half an hour that i cant marry a drunk guy cuz then i will hate my life and ill be miserable and im not really sure where he was going and i dont know why he would think i would just go off and marry some drunk guy, gosh idk, lol it was amusing though. haha. well sorry this blog was really lame, nothin much to say.

cind

Monty Python
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: That's So Raymond
i really hate being sick, i have lost 7 pounds, which makes me really angry cuz i want to give blood but u have to be a certain weight, and i was almost there!!! but no, not anymore gosh darnit!!! :( sigh, anyways not much to say today, nothin much happened. paul came over and we watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail, and i made him ramen noodles. it was fun, and he gave me butterfingers! which are my favorite! and reeses too of course. then after paul left to go to work i fell asleep for a while, and then went to class, very boring. i haaaate 3 hour classes they are so brutal. i was just talking to james and he said the CD i burned for him was all that he has listened to music-wise since i gave it to him, that made me happy. I made a CD with all my favorite songs for that roadtrip, and im not gonna lie, it was one amazing CD lol. well im glad u like it bff! peace

ya ever just have one of those days?
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: the peaceful sound of nothingness

today was just one of those days that would absolutly kill me if i had to go through it again. first i woke up at 6, after going to sleep around 2 from studying my butt off for sociology. anyways, i went to anatomy and my teacher was like "oh btw, u need to memorize all the bones and their markings by monday." now if she woulda just said bones i woulda been perfectly fine cuz 206 is not that bad, but no, i have to know all the markings as well! ok, this means all the little tiny dents, holes, fissures, facets, canals, processes, and projections of each bone. there are billions!!! ok there arent billions but i caclulated it out and there are roughly atleast 500, and each has its own unique stupid confusing different language scientific name. siiiigh then after hearing that from my professor, then she said we had to know all the bones by memory so much that we were going to have to be able to tell which bone is which by feeling it with our eyes closed. this lady is crazy! so me and the guy that sits next to me, joshua, were just like freeeeaking out, but finally after like an hour of freaking out we gave up and just started fooling around with all the stupid bones. it truly was rediculous. then later i went to sociology and took the hardest test of my life, and the 5 hours of studying i did? USELESS! it was all mostly multiple choice but every question had the same exact choices to pick from so it was all so confusing and i had no idea what i was doing, i was christmastreeing thats for sure. yea it sucked and that was a friggin huge unit test too. sigh, oh well. then i hung out with taylor, kevin, and nick for awhile which was allright. then i went home and slept and now i feel really awful, like i forgot how miserable it is to just have that overall sick feeling ya know? this usually happens to me once a semester when everything gets really stressful. i was telling james yesterday that i just want to hop on a train, and see where it takes me. i always thought that would be AWESOME! and i see a train everyday on my way to school, usually i have to wait for it to cross and every time i just feel like abandoning my car and running away. but anyways, yea, my head was totally gone today too. have u ever had those days were u like put ur clothes in the trashcan, and ur trash in the hamper? i do that all the time, i have lost so many pairs of socks that way. but anyways i just found my capris in the tub, and that was the icing on the cake of realizing my mind has run away with the train and left my body. so im sitting here feelin like im about to throw up all over my computer (sorry if that grosses u out but suck it up) instead of having a wendys picnic and watching Disney movies with James, and playing ultimate frisbee like i should be. but anyways, im out, i gotta sleep. gnight world.

cinni

james? where art thou?
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Les Choriestes - Compere Guilleri

ok so i just wrote a really long blog that took me like an hour and i hit submit, and then my computer died, and now i have to start over, except now i dont feel like writing all that again. hmm...sigh, gosh dang it. ok well today i went to school, aced a test, fell asleep in all my classes, went home, and slept a lot. then i watched a chickflick cuz i hang out with way too many guys so it was muchly needed and i cried so much lol, im a sucker when it comes to sad movies. then i had the inspiration to compose a piano song, so thats just what i did for like 2 hours, instead of homework of course, but its a lovely song! and then i slept some more, i know im getting sick or something cuz im always tired, and my apetite is gone alltogether, ive already lost a bunch of weight, and for some reason im not in the mood to run which is weird, cuz i always am. but whatev, now im waiting for james to talk to me, but he is too busy patiently listening to a kerby vacuum salesman in his living room. so im just waiting...and waiting...and waiting. i told james to kick her out but he's having too much fun. he just texted me and said she poured salt all over the carpet lol. gosh james, i want to talk to my bff! hurry! sigh...dang it! there's a bug flying all over my room and its driving me crazy!..."waiting on the world to change", "im still waiting for you to be the one im waiting for" hmm cant think of any more songs about waiting...james!...JaMeS!!...jAmEs!!!...JAMES!!!! oh btw to all my faithful readers lol if i have any, james posted the professional video of us on the sky coaster, and i look like a friggin idiot cuz i was flipping out! i like the one i uploaded on facebook today cuz it shows how loud i was screaming lol. but anyways...JAMES!!! sigh...HAHA! i killed that bug! gosh im so tired, james, bff! kick the lady out already! gosh! ...hmm...waiting, still waiting, and waiting.........and waiting...oh yay! he's online! ttyl suckas!

 cin

365 feet = MASSIVELY HIGH!
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: Switchfoot - Dare You to Move
ok hmmm let's just say i had an AMAZING weekend lol, it was jampacked with fun plans, but i think ill just talk about Old Town. ok so my sunday school class decided to go to Old Town in Kissimmee on saturday night. we got there and i was like dude, sweet, this place is awesome! it was like a fair on steroids! and for the past couple of weeks Jason kept pushing me to ride the Sky Coaster when we got there and i was like aaaahhhh no way! well...so we get there right, we eat, and then head straight to the Sky Coaster, and James and Steve knew they were going but needed another person to go with them and all night James was like Cindi, you're going, you're just going that's it. and i was like pshhh no! i mean i looked at the line for going on the sky coaster...and there was no line...at all. but um half an hour later somehow i was strapped down (with a full stomach btw) and climbing 365 feet up in the air just to fall to my doom. ok well if ur somebody like me and numbers like 365 feet mean nothing to you...well ok so we're up there and it was FRIGGIN MOTHER OF ALL SWASHBUCKLING SOOOOOO HIGH i could see the shuttle lunchpad which is TWO HOURS AWAY driving distance!!!! yea, i pretty much died, and also, for some other reason i was chosen to be the one to pull the chord while we were up there, this meant when got all the way up to 365 feet i was the one to make us drop! ummm, yea, that went well...so i pull this chord right and then i just screamed and screamed...and screamed...my throat still hurts. but anyways after that james promised to take me on the ferris wheel cuz i had never been on one and plus he totally owed it to me for making me go on that sky coaster!!! oh btw did i mention that sky coaster was the world's tallest? well yea, IT IS!!! but hey, i got a free tshirt for riding it! lol but the ferris wheel was fun and we went on a couple other rides too, fewf, what a night lol. and james i know i kept saying that i hated you cuz u made me go on that, but its ok ill always love you bff jamison harrison costello =)

Painting
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: The Office

so today i woke up and was about to start a crapload of homework, and my mom was like "oh cindi, btw, i told grams we would paint her house today." and i was like "oh...ok." so i spent allllll day painting that house, and nazi-gotta-do-everything-perfect-mother was not helping lol. and so i got done painting half the house, and i go to get a break and my mom was like "oh cindi, go dig up all those rocks in the front and paint the wall that is usually covered by the rocks and then put all the rocks back." and i was like "yes!" so i was doing all this, extremely dehydrated, so my fingers started to swell a lot, which happens when im overdoing it, so then haha, they started to swell even so much my skin started to crack, which has never happened before, it was fun. and half the time i was digging up the rocks i was stuck in bushes and something crawled up my shirt! (and then later i found a crapload of bugbites on my legs). but anyways as i was kneeling there awkwardly and painfully in a bush digging up rocks and painting i was complaining inside my mind, but then i realized hey wait a second. i have nothing to complain about, i have both my legs and both my arms, eyes, ears, etc. so i just kinda had a short little thankful moment and thanked God, and got back to work without a complaint. =) then later grams gave me ice cream hehe, so i was happy. then when i got home i realized i had spent all day painting and didnt get all the homework and crap done that was due today, but instead i took a shower and crashed on the couch, until someone woke me up to go to class, and class was fun, i was sleeping during some video and then i was rudely woken up by taylor lol when the teacher had apparently said "ok, lets gather in a circle" lol, so yea, now im home, tired, but happy, and going to bed. peace.

cind

Speedos Should Be ILLEGAL!
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: The Doobie Brothers - Keep This Train A-Rollin'

this morning i woke up after 11 hours of sleep, it was niiiice. and it was a beautiful day, so i threw on my bathin suit and headed to the beach. i was there by myself so i decided to take a long walk on the beach, cuz im weird like that and i love to walk and run long distances. but anyways while i was there i saw a really old man wearing a see through speedo! and i almost threw up all over the place, and i was definitely blinded for atleast an hour! (shudder, shudder) and then when i was heading back to my spot by Cherry Down there was this black guy that was fishing and he seemed to be waiting for me to pass. he was just standing there awkwardly so as i passed he said some stupid pickup line and called me "man" somewhere in his line. usually being called "man" or "dude" doesnt bother me at all, but a little advice to you guys out there, never use it in a pickup line! gosh, lol, use some common sense. but anyways, i just kept walking, and the guy's friend just started laughing really hard and making fun of him, haha, it was funny.

and then on my way home, i was listening to Z88.3 and the song called In My Arms, by Plumb, came on, and i absolutely LOVE that song!

clouds will rage and
storms will race in
but you will be safe
in my arms
rains will pour down
waves will crash around
but you will be safe
in my arms

when i hear that song, i cannot help but sing as loud as i seriously possibly can, not caring if anybody is listening. that song just means so much to me, i feel so close to God when i hear it, cuz its so true! i always picture God annoyed with me because sometimes i can stray way too far, and i can just picture Him with his arms crossed and His eyes disappointed, just waiting for me to come back. and the whole time i am far from Him, He is still always there, holding me, and I just wish I realized that more.

cindi lou

Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: one tree hill

this morning i woke up at 5:30 cuz i had a friggin huge anatomy test that i had not studied for, haha, surprize surprize. so i craaaaamed like crazy, and then i fell asleep while driving today!!! (dont tell my mom) but luckily i made it to class lol. and so this test, ok, let's just say i guessed on 75% of the questions, like seriously no joke. and i got an 84!!! haha, i was so happy, then i got to hold a real human skull, it was creppy hehe. later me and kevin went to walmart and we ended up fooling around there for a while. but we were looking at DVDs (2 for $10 lol) and this old man walks up and starts lookin as well. and then this old guy but like 20 years younger than the other old guy came up and asked me and kevin if computers could read DVDs, and we told him that the newer versions could. and the oldest man was like "nooooo, they can not!!! impossible!" and we were like "no, seriously, we watch DVDs on our computers all the time." and the oldest guy was like "nooooo" and then the other guy was like "noo they can! ur wrong." and then me and kevin left and the guys were still argueing and it just made me laugh because that one guy asked if they could or not but then when we were leaving he was having such a strong argument about the fact that they can. haha, idk, i thought it was amusing. well the rest of the day was really fun too, but im too lazy to type all that. so sorry this post was lame and pointless hehe, PEACE!

cinni

I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Dixie Chicks - Ready to Run

so today was simply amazing. that is all. there are no words to even describe how swashbuckling (lol) my day was. =)

cinderblick ;)

Paul Murray
Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: Home Improvement

ok so although that earlier post may have sounded pretty upbeat, today was a pretty miserable day due to retarded complications from the human brain not agreeing with rediculous emotions. but then i was just about to go to bed, and then paul started talking to me. and he knew i was upset, so we talked for a while, and it helped me so much. it turned out that he's pretty much been through the same thing that i have, and i had no idea. and i dunno, he just made everything seem so much clearer and i just want to thank you paul. you are one of my bestest friends ever in the entire world. and i know how much u hate it when friends go off to college and then you grow apart, but paul, i dont want to lose you like that, so if that starts to happen next year when im in orlando, just punch me in the face and yell at me lol.

but seriously, paul explained to me that sometimes it will be hard to trust God, and u will be frustrated, but how can we avoid that? ya know? its life. so i think, and although i had to learn this the hard way, i think God was simply trying to bring me back to Him. He knew I started taking control over my own life, but i was too caught up with everything i didnt even notice. i was ignoring the only person I can trust, and thats God. and so just now, while talking with paul, i finally realized that God knows whats best for me, and He simply puts me through stuff like this in order to draw me closer to Him. He hates the trials He gives me just as much as I do, but i know now that these trials are necessary. yes, im upset about all the confusion in my life right now, but im much more upset about the fact that i wasnt allowing God in my life to guide me.

I just thoughtd i share that with you, while it was still fresh in my mind, i am feeling like 200% better now hehe. and paul, i love you! thank you, im so lucky to have such a good friend like you!

cindi lou